Back to (Baby) Basics

It’s been four months since we welcomed our Baby J.  Those four months seemed to have flown by before my eyes!  A decade has passed since N and I experienced baby parenting so everything feels very new again.  There are even times when I feel like a first time mom as I grapple with things I’m supposed to do.

Truth be told, this has been the most exhausting time for me as a mom.  For one, this is the only time I’ve given exclusive breastfeeding a fair chance.  I also breastfed and when they were babies, but in hindsight, I think I gave up too easily and mixed-fed too early.  With J, I told myself that I will try as much as I can to feed him with breastmilk only.

It wasn’t a walk in the park, I can tell you.  First of all, the milk didn’t come instantaneously.  I think it was on the 3rd (or maybe 4th?) day when the milk flowed.  The lactation nurses in the hospital would visit and encourage me to still nurse often and be patient.  Sadly, the lack of milk in the first few left me and Baby  J frustrated.  He would cry and I would cry with him.  I would feel upset not being able to nourish him 😢.  Patience, they said, patience.  True enough, the milk did come!  But by this time, I’ve already got sore and cracked nipples.  Every feeding time was an ordeal!  I truly wanted to give up already because it was very painful.  But I endured…one feeding at a time.  And then slowly, it became more tolerable until one day, the pain was gone and we were  happily breastfeeding from then on.

It is still not easy.  It requires a little bit more from me —like watching what I eat to make sure I don’t consume allergenic foods like shrimp paste or eggs; or withholding my glass of wine for a little bit longer just to be sure ☺.  Then, there is also the round-the-clock feeding or pumping to make sure that the milk supply remains adequate.  Sleep has been (and still is) a luxury that I terribly miss.

True, exclusive breastfeeding is demanding and draining that it sometimes it leaves me feeling exhausted.  Despite this, I choose to do this until J is at least 6 months old.  Difficult as it may be, I cannot express the fulfillment that it gives me.  It may be one of the most rewarding feeling I’ve experienced as a mom.

 Baby J and I have been inseparable during his first weeks of life.  We didn’t have a yaya until he was about 2 months old already so it was mostly him and me for most times.  A baby can be a handful but thankfully, J was not very hard to take care of.  He is generally a happy baby and easy to deal with.  It also pays that N is very hands-on as a dad and the two older kids love taking care of the little one too.

Of course, there were times when I wanted to take a break and go out of the house.  But as soon as I get the chance to do so, I would be raring to go back home to J.  Talk about mommy separation anxiety! Haha 😯  I think it hit me the hardest a few days before my first day back at work.  Just the thought of leaving J made me sad and weepy! How I feel for all working mommas who had to go through the first day back at work after a maternity leave!

I’ve been back at work for over a month now but there are days when I still struggle with separation anxiety.  It is especially difficult to leave in the morning when he is in a playful mood.  I muster every ounce of willpower to go to work when this happens.  We just try to go back home as early as we can so we can have quality bonding moments with the little one.  On weekends, we are either full of kids’ activities or just home, catching up with each other.

Yes, it feels like we’re back at square one with the addition of Baby J to the family.  A lot of adjustments are made and in some ways, we are still finding our way around.  It feels like one big adventure and it’s one that we’re happy to embark on together as a family 😊.  We’d be delighted too if you’d keep us company! 😊

Almost there…

I am now at 37 weeks and 4 days today.

The hospital bag (make that luggage) is packed.  I believe we have all the necessary baby stuff on hand. The crib is all set and is awaiting the arrival of Baby#3!

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The kids are very excited!  I am excited…and nervous…and anxious…and everything else in between!

We are praying for a smooth and easy delivery.  I am due for a caesarian operation so I truly hope that everything will go as planned and that I will recover fast so I can take care of the baby.

We will be sure to keep you posted on the developments of Baby#3’s arrival so hang in there with us and get ready to pop those confetti very soon!

Preggy Update: It’s A Boy!

We are 28 weeks pregnant and we’re happy to share the latest news:

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F is ecstatic, of course (and that is not solely because he is fifty pesos richer from winning a bet with his sister 😉).  He already has plans on what they will do together, a list of things he will teach the baby and ideas on how they will pester their sister together.  S is just as excited about the baby.  She talks to him every day and even wants to start a countdown to Baby#3’s delivery date.

As for me, I started to panic a little after I realized that I can have that date with the stork in 9 weeks or so…and we haven’t got anything set up yet for the baby!  No crib, no stroller, no clothes or feeding bottles —nothing!  We made a quick trip to the mall this weekend to start canvassing items we will need. OMG!  I got so overwhelmed with the choices that are out there, I ended up leaving empty-handed.

The only thing that I was able to do was register for a “Mom Card” which earns me a point for every 100 pesos spent on baby items.  Registration fee is only Php100 and the card is valod for three (3) years so it’s a pretty good deal.  With the registration card also comes a loooong list of baby must-haves that I should really start mulling over.

For now, we’re relishing this bit of news first.  Till next update. ☺

I’m Baaaaaaack!

First of all, I truly apologize for the prolonged hiatus.  I didn’t mean to be away for so long. But 2015 did not quite start as I imagined it would and we were beset with illness and loss in the family.  It was a pretty rough start and sadly, writing had to take a backseat with the 101 urgent things that required my attention.

But I am back now…and bearing wonderful news!!!!

About three weeks ago, N & I received the most unexpected blessing and gift for our 12th wedding anniversary — we’re going to have a baby!

To say that I was surprised is probably the greatest understatement.  I have always been very vocal to family and friends that I am already content with our family set-up.  F & S are 12 and 10 years old, respectively and have slowly become self-sufficient and independent.  I have grown quite comfortable with our little arrangement that having another baby was farthest from my mind. Add the (inevitable) fact that I am already pushing 40, I really wasn’t particularly eager to get pregnant again.  But just when I thought I had it all figured out, life decides to throw me a curve ball.

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It took about a whole week for me to get settled into the idea of being pregnant again.  Despite the slow start, I am now embracing his blessing with open heart and arms wide open ☺.  N and the kids were thrilled with the news.  Naturally, F is wishing for a baby boy while S wants a baby sister.  Our daily family conversations are interspersed with things related to the baby like who would it look like or where will the baby sleep.  Would you believe that we already started shortlisting baby names this early?! Talk about excited! But we are not telling our baby name choices just yet.

Sometimes, I still feel anxious with my pregnancy.  I have tons of questions running through my head and just as many issues and concerns.  But I have been getting tremendous support and encouragement from my family, relatives and friends; it eases my restlessness a bit.  I am very thankful that N and the kids are with me, every step of the way!  And so, while it came as a huge and unexpected gift, this baby is indeed a blessing yo our family and we hope that you join us too in our newest adventure as a family.

So…pop that confetti! We’re having a baby!!! 🎉